DOUBLE UPSET

yesterday i got double upset....sooooo upsett

1. again for 4 consecutive years...my PTK Khusus still III....i dont know where is my mistake....what the answer should i write for the question that been asked....which is for increament of the salary, i must get PTK IV...i'm so sick, i'm so tired....and bored also...ya ALLAH....berilah aku kekuatan utk sit for the coming PTK exam...which is schedule on June...am I the only person who will sit for this coming exam???

2. i dont get N44 position.....i'm not soooo sad about this matter....becoz i'm already know....for this kenaikan pangkat....there's many criteria to be considered

a) service more than 3 years
b) SKT mark should be more than 85% for 3 consecutive years
c) should performe at interview time...

when i apply for this position....i'm already know, i'm not the one who eligible for this position due to unable to fullfill reason at point b)...like what kak kherun said....becoz she did not apply too....just becoz of that reason...but for the sake of my career enhancement....i still apply....just try n error...

so...i thought...the management will do the tapisan....like shortlisted something like that...but when i got the interview letter...it seems that...anybody can apply for that position regardless all the criteria that should fullfill....

i think most probably reason i dont get this position is the condition at point b)...i dont know when should i get...maybe 3, 5 year later....o never get at all....

with the currect situation at my organization...it becomes more difficult for me to achieve 85% mark for SKT....so sad....becoz we have different set of first assesors...whether u get boss yg baik hati....or boss with full of schematic thinking about giving the marks...

this is my personal blog...and this is also my personal view...

my husband is the top supporter of my career....he said...tak pe la yang....bukan rezeki anis lagi....mungkin rezeki tu ada pada abang...abang pon nak mtk tukar unit..cuma takut bos tak lepas...abangkan mastermind...hehehe....aku sedih....dia wat lawak pulak...sapa tahu rezeki ayang nanti berganda....tak semestinya org yg dpt tu....bla...blaa...panjangnya ceramah laki aku....dia mmg camtu....kalau nasihat mmg pandai...this is the main reason why i choose him....

after breastfeed anis....is not easy for me to sleep....i'm still upset...always think this n that....now at 230 am.....i'm willing to improve my career...i'm willing for betterment of my life...i'm willing this n and that....so for the sake of my family....i want to do this....this is my plan for another half of the year 2008

a) sit for the coming PTK exam
b) looking for the other job...try N41 at the other jabatan/ministry
c) apply also for the N44 position at any department/ministry

i'm not merajuk or kecik hati...even adalaaa a bit...bohonglaa sapa tak ada perasaan tu....we are human being right...again...i still want to mention...with the current position...it become tough for me to improve my career....so i better change from today....if not...its too late for me to regret...

ok laa nadia....jgn sedih....u still have bright future....try n keep trying....there's still a oppurtunity...even not today...tomorrow....good luck dear....well, again....i should proud with my self...to take this challenge as a priority...